give your heart a break

I don't know what is happening to me. Sama ada aku yang tak betul ataupun errrr...ala..you know..(smacks forehead). Lately, jantung aku berdegup kuat sampai nak terkeluar dari dada aku. Bah, untuk sesaat aje pulak tu. So, bukan sebab nervous-lah. Tapi, aku bukan sakit, tau! Siap buat check up. Haha
Ah, the hell with it.

Ha, since the love-maniac is back, I'm gonna write bout love sampai hari aku patah hati. Heartbroken, I'll say "This will be last time ever." Ish, don't believe me on this sebab nasib aku turun naik. Sometimes aku happy, sometimes ada hint kena reject. Haha. Aku takkan ada pendirian tetap pasal benda alah ni. Harap2 dijauhkan patah hati segala bagai, amin..

Third of all, kenapa? Kenapa every single time aku log-in Facebook, first status yang aku ter..(aku ulang, TER) ternampak ialah status dia? I mean, why now? Dulu, masa aku hari-hari cari update dia macam orang gila (I'm serious!) dia tak ada. Hari-hari aku log-in fb setakat nak tengok kalau dia ada log-in ke tak, dia tak online pun. 

Oh, I know, you've made that promise. And you didn't break it. Oh tak, kau ada log-in, once or twice, I don't know, just to change your profile picture. Oh crap, shut it!

But now, each time aku log-in, muka dia. Aku pergi 'Home', status dia. Then, I clicked my name, scroll down..scroll down..don't wanna see ma pic..don't..please..oh crap! Muka dia lagi, dengan full name sekali. Akhirnya, aku chat dengan classmates aku sampai tak cukup tangan nak reply. Otherwise nanti tangan aku gatal2 nak buka profile dia. Nyeh nyeh nyeh..

Entahlah, setiap kali aku cakap "I'm giving up," aku akan nampak/dengar nama dia everywhere. Facebook for sure, web and oh no! friends.. Takdir takkan berhenti 'menyeksa' aku selagi aku tak lepaskan 'benda' ni but how am I gonna do that? Its not that easy...

Errr..dah la tu. I feel stupid. Writing about a guy who doesn't feel anything about these posts. Weyh, maksudnya, berjayalah jugak aku sorokkan identiti dia dalam cerita2 bangang aku ni. That's emmmm...good? Bla..bla..bla..chi..cha..chi..cha.


Currently listening to:

The day I first met you 

You told me you never fall in love 

But now that I get you 

I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are, so close 

Yet so far, haven't I passed the test 

When will you realize 

Baby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart 

I wanna give your heart a break 

I know you're scared it's wrong 

Like you might make a mistake 

There's just one life to live 

And there's no time to wait, to wait

So let me give your heart a break 

Give your heart a break 

Let me give your heart a break 

Give your heart a break

p.s: no melancholy tone, please. goodnight, besties. <3